the sweetness of iman

Day in and day out.. I see more and more Muslims getting closer to their religion. Its great to see more people watching Islamic videos on youtube, forums, etc..

I see people discussing on  religious matter more and more everyday... Its great that the Muslims in Malaysia are becoming more interested in the religion.


It's great that people are going to the mosque, praying 5 times a day, fasting in the beautiful month of Ramadhan, reciting the Quran, going to hajj, etc...

We often discuss what we should do and what we shouldn't do, we often speak of how good if we do certain things, we always speak of the technical matters of reciting, the do(s) and the don't(s).. we speak about the sunnah, we discuss the huge matter of the religion and the Quran and the prophet...

But, we often forget one thing that is very, very, very important...

We kept forgetting about our heart.

Today I encountered this one situation... I saw a middle-aged man wearing a kupiah, talking on the phone shouting at the person on the line. Apparently, he was not happy because the person was late for 5 minutes and the reason the other person were late is because there was some communication problem.

Right after that telephone conversation (btw.. he was talking very harshly to the receiver) he put down the phone and walked away arrogantly. 

FYI- I  got to know, this man is a religious teacher. 

After watching the whole event...  I walked out the place and saw an Indonesian lady, a cleaner.. sweeping the floor..

Then, a cat came along making some sound (indicating that she is hungry) I saw the religious teacher walked pass the cat.. The cat made some sound to him and tried going around him. He pushed away the cat; "hishhh!!!!"

The lady saw the incident. She went straight to the cat, lifted the cat and later come back with some food. Obviously, the food that was given to the cat is her lunch and she gave about a quarter of it to the cat.


I went to the lady, smiled at her and asked.. "kak, itu makanan tengahari akak kan?" -"Sister, isn't that your lunch?"

and she smiled and replied; "kucing ni lapar..." "the cat is hungry..."


Amazed with her generosity, I smiled at her and said; "you are such a beautiful person"


While walking towards the car, I thought about the Indonesian lady.

What a huge heart she has, and I remembered the prophet once said. The biggest jihad of a man is to have a pure heart.

Once you have a good heart, insyaAllah, everything will fall in place. May Allah lead all of us to the right path and make us the people with iman.

Assalamualikum

The past one year.

Assalamualikum everyone.

Hopefully it is not too late to wish all of Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin. =)

"Every experience Allah gives us, every person He puts in our lives is the perfect preparation for the future that only HE can see" 

I am here to announce the cancellation of my wedding. Those who have received the cards, for those of you who have been verbally invited or phone text, whatsapps, etc.

All I can say is, the time is not right yet for me to be married. =)

Things happen for a reason, and I am sure it is for the best for everyone.


Do not worry about me, I am doing well. Thank you for all the support and sweet texts. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me such loving family members and friends.

Please do not as any questions either, as I do not wish to answer anything at all.

thank you. Assalamualikum

Losing it

Good day everyone!

So, I've been occupied, doing a lot of things... u know, the semester (diploma) just ended... which means, absolutely nothing.!!!! coz we still need to work on so many things.. don't get me wrong, i do love my job... but i guess it's just the nature of  human, we complain!!! hahaha~


ANYWAY.. I've been looking around and I see the Malaysians are getting more and more concern of the physical out-look.

Back then, it was really hard to find guys in fitted shirt, with 6 packs... But these days.. anywhere u turn, u will spot these "muscle men".  Which is great! We love looking at them! lol!

I guess, the Malaysians are having a better life nowadays.. better income, better education-----> which leads us to a better life-style... We are becoming more and more concern of our looks, our appearance... People are becoming more vain.. Or perhaps it's the in thing now to go to the gym and work on the beach body?

Even on Facebook, Instagram, Tweeter, you will see all these diet pills, beauty pills, beauty juice, etc,etc- some to help you reduce the weight, some to help you to reduce scars or acne on the face, some to make your skin "brighter".  

Ever since I was a student, I had always been working-out. I swim about 20 laps a day.. And when I studied in Sydney, I joined some dance classes that requires you to dance and work-out at the same time- zumba, body combat, jazzercise, yoga and a lot more! I stopped going to the classes since I came back and my weight went UP and feels like there is no turning back!!!!

Not being able to fit to any of the jeans that I own, is just not cool, at all... On top of everything, it feels very tiring to walk too much, I hate to take the stairs- its too tiring! So, I decided to lose it, work it out, and keep a healthy life-style... The aim was to be HEALTHY- to have stamina, to go up and down the stairs with no sweat, and to be able to fit into my very own jeans.. 

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So.. what is the world's biggest secret to lose weight?

Only 2 things.

1) Eat healthly

2) Exercise


The problem with me- I love food! I love chocolates, I have a sweet-tooth! But, at the same time, I love other things too! I never deprive myself from food. I still eat everything that I enjoy to eat- but in a smaller portion.
I add more vegetables and fruits in my diet. I still do eat McDonalds, KFC, u name it! I eat it all... and it's all good- you just need to control yourself!

Exercise- I have to admit, I exercise a LOT. I jog, (walk most of the time, lol), swim, dance.. But, i hate going to the gym. I get bored doing the same thing everyday, so i need to add variety in my work-out routine.
I go for my dance work-out everyday and  on certain days I swim instead.. During weekends, i jog or I go hiking. Sometimes, when I am very very lazy...I just do some crunches, planks, and some other work-routine at home, in my very own room.


I feel great now, going up and down to the stairs? TOO EASY. my old jeans? i need a new pair now. The old one is wayyy too big for me. =)

You don't really need those pills, diet-drink, slimming cream or those tight-corset to help you reduce your weight. Just put your focus to be healthy- watch your food and exercise regularly. And why is this better?

Coz, you don't really need to spend any extra money AND it lasts. I have to say.... it is, a very slow process... slow BUT sure. =)
Have a good day everyone! cheers!!!

what it actually is...

I just realized that my past blogs is all about getting married! haha~

Well, mainly because that what most "normal" people do when the are about my age or younger or older. Well, whatever that suits them.

Some says getting married is just another step after graduating and getting a job. Some does it for the sake of parents. Some says to complete each other. Some says it's easier to be married- I can't seem to control myself any longer! LOL

But there are some who wants to be married to escape from his/her life. To be able to make his/her own decisions. To have his/her opinion at home. To do whatever they wish to do, to go wherever they want. Why? because, believe it or not..  Some Muslim parents can be a bit controlling towards their child doesn't matter what age the child is or the gender. Harsh truth, but that's the reality. Where is the mistake? Well,  here they are: Parents, heads up please-

1) Children needs love, lots and lots and lots of love, and a great amount of attention. Doesn't matter how old or young they are.

2) Communication: Trust me, there's a major problem in here. Most parents feel the only way to convince their child is to "force" them. You can, when they were young. But, in the future, they will start pretending in front of you.In return, they let you hear, things that you want to hear and tell you things that you only want them to do..

3) Trust: Trust is a very difficult thing. But, if you have raised you child with a good foundation of Islam, insyaAllah she/he will be alright. Now, what does it mean by a good foundation of Islam? Always start with yourself. If you are not patient, then you are lack of iman too. Be patient, tackle things gently.

4) Anger: Control your anger. Why do you think your child doesn't want to talk to you? Coz you keep barking at him/ her!

5) Time changes and so should you. Remember what Muhammad told us. Raise your child according to the time. (zaman). Why do you thing it's different now compared to your time? Of course it's different! Because everything changes.

6) Control: Seriously, I have seen a child, who is so scared to even take a gift from her own teacher! Because she thinks her mummy might scold her.Seriously? If your child is scared of you about everything.. You must be a monster! Remember that I am a teacher and I used to teach very young children from the age of 4 and above. And the worst part is, once the child is grown.. She/He prefers to talk to everyone, except you.


7) Being fair: Here is the most difficult part. Be fair to all. They deserve the best from you.

All of these things I've said is based on my readings, and my close attention to some child that I've approached. A lot of them feel that it is nicer to talk to their teacher or friends. So, if you are having a child, already have a child or planning to have one or more, try not to do all these if you want to raise a good person. well,  it's just an opinion!

I wanna marry a millionare.

I met a friend and she was telling me "I'm not ready to get married coz I have not met the one" *YAWN*
Like, seriously, where and when will you ever meet "the one".

Living in Malaysia, is the toughest.

Why? Coz we have A LOT of western influence in us as well as the eastern.

Its harder, if you are a Muslim. why? Here's why, ladies and gentleman...

Because of the western influence, we learn about all these "worldly" things. We want to be rich and powerful. But, at the same time, we are Malaysians too. We are born to be gentle and subtle and soft. At the same time, we are Muslims, so we have our limitations on certain things. The problem with us is we are trying so hard to balance ALL these.

1) For some certain reason, we really really REALLY care about a person's position. It really matters how much money he is making, what position he has, what car he drives, how big the house is and the list goes on and on...

2) Then, we will be looking at the LOOK. How tall he is, how good he looks, nice body,  too fat, too skinny, his hair, his nose, his hand, bla bla bla...

3) Next, we need to look at his family background. Does he come from a good family?  How "well known" is the family?

4) Education background. Does he have a masters? Did he graduate from overseas? How qualified is he? Degree? Phd? SPM?

 5) Life-style/personality check. Is he a party animal? Is he a party-popper? Is he the serious type? Sit-home-all-day-till-my hair-turns-grey type? I-have-no-friends-except-my-fb-friends type? How about the way he leads his life? Is he stylish? Does he have a great personality?

6) Lastly, and finally... is he pious?

*SIGH*

When I close my eyes, and I think deeply. OMG, if these are what expected from me, I will never be able to get married.

If you ask me, what is your definition of the "RIGHT GUY"? Well, for me, it's pretty simple.
A person who makes me happy, who can provide me with guidance to the right path, and who can provide me with my basic needs. Yes, I do not need a person who can buy me a Ferrari or a10 thousand Prada handbag for me to show off proudly.

It makes me sick in the stomach to even think that there are millions of people dying everyday on the street out of hunger and at the other side of the world, we are buying a handbag worth 10 thousand dollars??

Why do we do that? Why do we wear the most expensive clothes? Because we care what people think of us.

Why do we want to be with the most richest-stable-qualified-influenced guy? Because we care what people think of us.

But, do we care what Allah think of us? Why can't we lead a simple life? Do we bother to help our brothers and sisters who are in need?

Look around you, look at the things we do just because we want to be respected. Just because we fear "what people going to say" about us.

What are we scared of? The society? Not again?? What people going to say? Masya-Allah! We are living in a temporary world.We are all going to die. And no one knows when. Only Allah knows when we will die. So, what is your "property" once you'll die? Unfortunately, we can't bring the million bucks, or the big house or the luxurious things.

Stop judging, everyone. Just stop judging. NO ONE is better than nobody. It does not matter if you are a millionaire or a garbage collector. Have you ever thought that the garbage collector might be in Jannah in the after-life. Maybe he has done a lot of good things in life. Maybe we don't.

I am saying all these as a reminder to myself before everyone.

Remember that Islam is a way of life. It should not be a balance between this and that.

Well, this is a reminder, just in case you forgot. Assalamualikum. Have a great day everyone!

i don't want to get married! no!! I SAID NO!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Have you ever heard these lines before (or something similar):

"I don't want to get married yet, cause I want to enjoy life first"

"I want to get married. But, I don't have money!"

"I am not ready to commit myself"

"I don't think I can be a good wife/husband.. I'm too young!"

"You are too young to get married! Wait till you have enough money, then you can get married."


Because I was born in a beautiful country; Malaysia, with full of culture I became one of these people too.
The environment; society, family, friends and media made me feel that to get married, we need to have loads of money first. This is because, we have merisik, (proposal) bertunang, (engagement), berinai, nikah, (solemnization) and the bersanding/ majlis ("the ceremony") and of course, we have honeymoon too..

So, the thing that scare us to get married is the fact that we need to spend so much money on a wedding!

As a Muslim, we are required to do the nikah. During nikah, the groom is required to present his bride with dowry. And that is pretty much it! 







But, remember that it is sunnah to do the nikah in front of many people. And after the nikah it is sunnah to give dates (kurma) to everyone. It is also sunnah to celebrate the next day (to let people know that you are married)

Sunnah is an Arabic word which means a path or a way. However, Islaamically, it is a primary source of law taken from the sayings, actions and approvals of the Prophet Muhammad

Isn't it amazing how the wedding preparation needs at least A YEAR to organize! the nikah pretty much takes about 20-30 mins max! And what is up with our lafaz nikah? Do you know that there is no such thing as lafaz in a single breath or anything like that in Islam? Why do you make our lives so miserable? Do you know that all you need to say is "yes".

The only thing required is the groom and the bride to agree to marry each other and listen to the nikah khutbah (nikah speech), in front of at least two male Muslim witness (yes, TWO not four!) Islam is not that complicated. We are the ones who made it all so confusing! I don't know why we do that!

And the dowry or wedding present which is usually a certain amount of money (mas kahwin) is fard (mandatory) to be given as a gift to the bride, but not the hantaran. Why do people keep on asking: how much is your hantaran? Does it matter? Do we need to put our price? really? Are we selling ourselves?  Why do we do that?
For those of you who do not know what hantaran is, it is actually a certain amount of money given to the bride's parents from the groom. Apparently, the higher the value, the higher your standard. The standard graduate-young-beautiful-bride will get around 15 thousand ringgit for the hantaran. 

You see, we should get married at a young age to stop us from the desires to have sex, etc,etc. But, it seems like we are always "too young" and we dont have enough money to get married! after doing all the calculation, we need at least rm 25000 to have a decent wedding!



Getting married means completing half of our deen. It is about completing half of our religion! It is not about having enough money, or when we are "ready" or when we are done having fun with our lives. What is that suppose to mean? Getting married does not mean your life  is going to be over. If that is how you feel, maybe you are with the wrong partner! It is about starting a new life together, creating new life and being with each other.

I know I may be the least qualified person to be talking about all these.Honestly, whatever I just shared to you, is how I used to feel about marriage! And my views change completely when I started understanding Islam. =)

temptation to ......

I was sitting in the room and thinking about how much temptation we have to do/ have/want in life... u know what I'm talking about.. anyway...... I know... I am suppose to sleep and have a good rest because 2moro is my exam.. but, i kindda had a good sleep just before and woke up in the middle of the night....

Alhamdullilah.. (praise to Allah) The past few months I have had something good going in my mind... But, I think I should say it out LOUD so that maybe, it will come to me eventually.. And hopefully, I will be able to do it... soon... sooner, the better..


Honestly, I have been checking out this one guy on YouTube..Baba Ali.. he's an American Muslim, he converted his religion to Islam after doing research about the religion.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbDeEvMgQ1k

What I found is really really great is the fact that he is in America. Not in some Middle Eastern country or somewhere in Asia..On top of that, his family is secular. His family believes in science and technology. However, Baba Ali is a very curios guy. He kept on looking for the truth and start researching about a few religion. Before, he was a Wiccan, a religion that believes there is power in  rocks, sun, etc.. Later on, he realize this rock can't even save themselves, how can he believe in these rocks?

He went on research about lots of religion to find what is the truth...

He finally saw the truth in Islam after reading the Q'uran as it tells the complete way of life. The thing that he made him believe is the fact that how science and Q'uran is very much connected. After being a Muslim, he realize that Islam is more than a religion; it is actually the way of life: it changes everything in his life. The way he thinks, he acts, his clothing, his perceptions, his views, well.. basically.. EVERYTHING..

After being a Muslim, he decided to put up videos on Islam: his videos are very educational and helped me a LOT on viewing Islam in a beautiful way.. I find it really amazing the person that blew my mind off with the religion that I was born with is a dude form America who converted in Islam. Obiously, he knows a lot more than I do!

I love the way he views Islam.. and how it is actually beautiful! The problem is not the religion, the problem is the people. After living for the past 25 years, studying Islam in school, Sekolah Agama (Religion School), mengaji (reciting Q'uran) with all the ustaz and ustazahs ((religious teachers).. not even once they  told me how beautiful the religion is.. In fact, they made the religion looks scary and how strict it is...

Anyway... after looking up this religion closely for the past few months..I saw a lot of things actually clashes with our culture.. The problem with us is how we try to find the parallel in the culture and the religion. It doesn't work that way at all..

Islam is Islam. It has got nothing to do with our culture. If it is haram, it is haram..(forbidden)

And this derives me to my main issue of the topic... I just wanna say out loud my desire to start wearing a hijab.I find myself contradicting with my own self. I am a believer, but I am not doing the main thing that is to cover my aurat from non-muhrims..

Alhamdullilah, Allah opened my heart to take a few big steps in life. And I believe this is one of it too.
I have been keeping this desire to myself. But, I know if I don't speak up, I may not do it anytime soon.

Well, I guess that is all I want to say..

btw, try to check out this guy.. it might change your view too. insyaAllah..